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[MUST READ] An old H.O.T fan’s analysis of Peter Pan
Peter Pan: he has always been there.
To new fans, this may just seem like a fairytale love song, at best, a song with an especially good melody.
but to an old fan who has genuinely loved a sunbae group, this song is pouring salt in your wounds, mercilessly making you cry.
Everybody knows the ups and downs of boygroups in SM Entertainment.
fans who are still in the white house (h.o.t fans), there are practically none; red house and blue house, their main body has always been changing. the old fans who have been with them since their debut gradually become silent and leave the fandom, and then new idol-chasing blood will barge right in.
Why is this?
This is because those fans have all grown up.
Those people who were brainwashed by SM entertainment since the idols’ debut, they have loved the deepest and the earliest.
having experienced the disintegration of groups, and problems such as members leaving one by one, they themselves have grown up too.
They have dated, loved boys in real life, hurt, experienced exams, graduated college or even university, watched the people by their side leave or change, and became more mature and sophisticated.
Things related to idols become much less important in their eyes, and no longer take up their free time.
although you might still love the complete them during debut, but people change, and the world changes with time as well.
even if the original complete group is still around, they no longer look like what they did when we first fell in love with them.
And so, that untouchable lover we had, like an angel that has flown away in a fairytale, can never come back again.
Similarly, the most beautiful years of our youth, the feeling of concentrating our love on one single person at that time, can never come back again.
From EXO’s debut, i just felt this sense of familiarity. The strong SMP style, the feeling of ‘saving the world’ with their debut song, and that sense of mysticism all made me think back of the debut eras of the now olden sundae groups, especially H.O.T
h.o.t had a song titled ‘wolf and sheep’, which was my first thought when i first saw ‘wolf and beauty’.
The groups SM has been debuted these few years, actually have been trying different styles, such as Super junior and SNSD, a very big difference from their original SMP style, so this time, SM really really revisited the past.
When i first heard this song, i worthlessly shed tears.
why not everyone try read the next few lines while listening to the song:
It was during my best years, I had a lover named ‘Peter Pan’, for some reason, he cannot come back again.
but recently, this guy appeared by my side. his similarities with peter pan are striking: his tone, look, voice, presence, habits, everything and everything. they all formed a poison named ‘familiarity’, leaving me shaken.
as I attempted to carefully seek for a confirmation, forcefully trying to stay awake, he suddenly said: “have you been alright the past few years?”
old friend has returned… the waiting has finally paid off.
then, tears just fall heavily.
Those tear inducing lyrics and tear inducing melody just seem to kill an ex-fan by the minute, forcing me to bring my attention back to the kpop that i have left a long time ago.
This can explain why so many old fans are going back into fandom recently.
It is almost as if the people we have loved back then have reincarnated into a more youthful version and returned to our sides.
look at the lyrics:
“老去的日记在墙角被遗忘
翻开被灰尘覆盖掉的过往
在那一页，你还那么耀眼，依然留在里面
过去的画面渐渐的醒过来
心跳也好像那天一样澎湃
可惜时间，却不能随心所欲的倒退
你的彼得潘
离开你有一点孤单
回到我们的 neverland
回忆都还在
我们彼此凝望，微笑都还在
我永远是你彼得潘
我还留在时间里祈盼
穿越云彩飞过记忆的海，去看无可替代的爱
(The old diary lies forgotten in the corner of the room
I flip open the dirt-covered past
On that page, the image of you still clear, kept safely within
The past images slowly awaken
My heart beats excitedly like it did that day
Sadly we cannot rewind time at will to go back
I’m your Peter Pan, it felt lonely to leave you, going back to our Neverland
The memories are all there, our smiling gazes also there
I’m always your Peter Pan, I’m still waiting expectantly in time
Across the clouds, flying through the sea of memories
Searching for the irreplaceable love)”
many years later, there will be members of exo who will be enlisted into the army, some might become actors, hosts. all in all, they will all be doing their own things:
and as a fan, you will have your own lover, studies, business, family,
maybe then, you will listen to this song again, and understand how i feel right now.
maybe then, you will go to their concert, and hear them sing, “i’m your peter pan forever”
forever, how long is that?
Let’s treasure the youthful and complete them now, and yourself
Credits: http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_870c573d0101jzih.html
but to an old fan who has genuinely loved a sunbae group, this song is pouring salt in your wounds, mercilessly making you cry.
fans who are still in the white house (h.o.t fans), there are practically none; red house and blue house, their main body has always been changing. the old fans who have been with them since their debut gradually become silent and leave the fandom, and then new idol-chasing blood will barge right in.
having experienced the disintegration of groups, and problems such as members leaving one by one, they themselves have grown up too.
They have dated, loved boys in real life, hurt, experienced exams, graduated college or even university, watched the people by their side leave or change, and became more mature and sophisticated.
although you might still love the complete them during debut, but people change, and the world changes with time as well.
even if the original complete group is still around, they no longer look like what they did when we first fell in love with them.
h.o.t had a song titled ‘wolf and sheep’, which was my first thought when i first saw ‘wolf and beauty’.
why not everyone try read the next few lines while listening to the song:
but recently, this guy appeared by my side. his similarities with peter pan are striking: his tone, look, voice, presence, habits, everything and everything. they all formed a poison named ‘familiarity’, leaving me shaken.
as I attempted to carefully seek for a confirmation, forcefully trying to stay awake, he suddenly said: “have you been alright the past few years?”
old friend has returned… the waiting has finally paid off.
then, tears just fall heavily.
It is almost as if the people we have loved back then have reincarnated into a more youthful version and returned to our sides.
look at the lyrics:
“老去的日记在墙角被遗忘
翻开被灰尘覆盖掉的过往
在那一页，你还那么耀眼，依然留在里面
过去的画面渐渐的醒过来
心跳也好像那天一样澎湃
可惜时间，却不能随心所欲的倒退
你的彼得潘
离开你有一点孤单
回到我们的 neverland
回忆都还在
我们彼此凝望，微笑都还在
我永远是你彼得潘
我还留在时间里祈盼
穿越云彩飞过记忆的海，去看无可替代的爱
I flip open the dirt-covered past
On that page, the image of you still clear, kept safely within
My heart beats excitedly like it did that day
Sadly we cannot rewind time at will to go back
The memories are all there, our smiling gazes also there
I’m always your Peter Pan, I’m still waiting expectantly in time
Across the clouds, flying through the sea of memories
Searching for the irreplaceable love)”
and as a fan, you will have your own lover, studies, business, family,
maybe then, you will listen to this song again, and understand how i feel right now.
maybe then, you will go to their concert, and hear them sing, “i’m your peter pan forever”
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